.my favorite/most recent works.
.composites. ::
.mini description. ::
wrenn and "friends"
I created this scene to illustrate how I use nature to discuss mental health and my connection between them. me in-between the trees symbolizes the barrier of social isolation. I walk alone while the plushies walk together. I made this composite back in december 23'.
cycle of time
this composite illustrates my anxiety and frustrations with how time slips away from me. It is an ongoing cycle I am trying to escape as I walk up this endless path. I positioned the clocks to form a grave since it was around halloween time. I made this composite back in october 23'.
skate angst
this composite represents the occurrence of cloudy thoughts that come into my mind with skating and progress, which I am trying to erase, literally. additionally, I erased the bottom of my torso to illustrate the separation of body and mind. I made this composite back in april of this year.
agender daisy
this composite focuses on my earring, which symbolizes part of my gender that connects with flowers, specifically daisies. then the texture of the white parking stripe I overlayed, the white color represents genderlessness. I made this composite back in august 23'.
.spine diptych ::
quietness of mind.
these two images represent positive and negative parts of myself. I try to reach for joy and reject fear. I positioned my body opposite of each other to illustrate these opposing emotions. additionally, placed together how they are, my body creates a spine/s-curve. I express my emotions through pose instead of my face because stretching is important to me and a means of self expression. I edited these in greyscale because greyscale (to me) simplifies and brings a sense of quietness. I made these two images back in december of 22'.
reach
reject
.my most recent series ::
crumpled thoughts.
this five image self-portrait series represents song quotes that mean a lot to me, and I relate to. Each connects with an emotion as well as the color I associate them with. The crumpled up piece of paper I photographed and overlayed symbolizes these emotions and thoughts jumbled in my mind wanting to be expressed. I used a steep camera angle (birds-eye-view) to show how I feel observed a lot by people, as the viewer looks down on me in these images. I made these five images in april of this year.
If you want to listen to the songs ::
1. grocery store - cavetown
2. If I were a fish - by corook feat. olivia barton
3. night knuckles - cavetown
4. notion - the rare occassions
5. slime - addison grace
.crumpled thoughts. ::
.mini description. ::
melancholy
this first image illustrates the melancholy I feel around people. The dress not being a full circle represents not feeling real/like a whole person. No matter what I do I always stand out to people and I am afraid to connect with others a lot of the time.
frustration
this second image illustrates my frustrations with others not respecting trans, non-binary (anyone who is not cis) folks. People are so afraid of what they have never been exposed to. Instead of acknowledging this, being willing to learn and respectful, they make fun.
isolation
this third image illustrates how I isolate myself from others out of fear of embarrassing myself socially. I chose to not put on the dress entirely to show how I do this to myself. It is me against myself. I restrict myself from connection just as the dress restricts by body.
guilt
this fourth image illustrates guilt I feel. I feel the pressure from the notion western society pushes onto people to have my life figured out, and the fact that I do not equates to me "wasting my life away." I do not feel in control, as I try to pull the zipper up the dress (a play on the quote).
numbness
this final image illustrates the numbness I feel toward myself. I have my hands on the floor as I ask myself do I feel anything.? I have become more emotionless. I used to care a lot and that has dissipated as I have gotten older. I feel I have nothing to offer people.
